No school

Cash actually threw a fit and would not cooperate today about going to school. Technically he was not supposed to go to school but I had a photoshoo. Totally having mother guilt about taking him to school when he didn't want to go.... thankfully I had a wonderful client who said bring him along- it wouldn't take too long. We brought the video player and between that and my client. Cash did wonderfully. (Though I forgot to mention before we even left the house, we had some defiant behavior from Cash and we had a moment of breakdown between the two of us.- So I was thinking my day was not going so well) And after the photo shoot we went to my friends house who was having a Cash for Gold Party and he did awesome there too! 

Then we went to Kroger and he had a minor melt down but no big deal. We finally got home and it was time for a nap. He did his business #1 & #2 and I tucked him in. Or so I thought. I heard some noise, I snuck upstairs and peeked in the bathroom door. Like a deer in headlights he was squeezing soap into his hands. I asked what are you doing, he said I am washing my hands, I got poop on them, then I realized his pants were off. Then I looked and saw he did lots of #2 business in the bathroom. I cannot tell you how proud I was of him, I wanted to cry. He is learning and growing so much. He did so good after we had a little discussion about his not listening to me earlier today. And now he is officially napping.  Its a small story but for me it means so much because I have been struggling with his disobedience lately. Especially when I know he is really such a good and sweet boy.  Of course it always makes me think of God. How does God reprimand us when we are disobedient. We don't get a physical spanking or a time out. What are ways that he reprimands me because Lord knows I need it too.

I honestly think it maybe is how God breaks us of our will. It may not be a time out or a spanking.  But he somehow definitely helps us feel broken in order to carry us and take hold of us. Lately I have been feeling broken. I think Cash is totally being used by God to help build his mother's character. And man it can be tough on her.

Ok so I am realizing this entry is more for me than Cash. But my last paragraph makes me think of this book I recently heard of...

A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23. Phillip Keller.  I guess in it he explains that if a lamb is lost, sometimes a Shepherd will break the lambs legs in order to carry it back to the rest of the sheep. And then he will tape and bind the legs for healing. But I just thought it was interesting that sometimes there is a need to break a lamb in order to carry it and help it heal.  That is how I feel.